back again

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IMG_2893IMG_2892IMG_2890IMG_2891IMG_2894(dUCk Singapore Skyline scarf, f8te flare sleeve shift dress, Love Bonito satin culottes, Raoul wedges)

It’s been a long time coming. So many things happened since my last post, I don’t even know where to begin. Let’s get the obvious out of the way first. I haven’t blogged in a while because, well, my favourite photographer is gone, or to put it simply, I’m a single lady now (or have been since last the year ended).

Pretty sure everyone has the same burning question being, “What happened?” – here’s my answer, “I don’t know”. The easiest explanation would be that we’re both at different places in our lives. I’m a working adult, he’s still a student. We’ve been together for almost 9.5 years, and to me, it made perfect sense for us to settle down sometime soon (give and take 2 years). I guess for the most part I’ve been the selfish party, always “thinking out loud” about how we’re reaching a decade this year and that, me being into events, wanted something special to remember our 10th by.

I love him and so I wanted him to officially be mine (in His eyes) as fast as possible. I didn’t think about anything else. I’ve never really given a thought about rings (I swear I have no idea what’s what, I don’t even know the types of diamond rings there are), or what I want on my wedding trays, or whatever goes behind the preparation of getting married (with all honesty, all I wanted was to be his wife then get out of the country and go on a month long honeymoon) (No wait, I did want a Manolo Blahnik as my bridal shoes. That was the only thing I was very certain about).

Growing up together, I used to envision a wedding reception in Tanjong Katong Sec (where we first started) but as we matured, we thought the simplest would be the best. You know, a simple solemnisation with the closest friends and family type of reception? Yeah that. (Because a month long vacation, duhhh!) All these talks must have been overwhelming for him to think about, amidst FYP, exams and what have you. As mentioned, I was the selfish party, and my insensitive plans about the future must’ve burdened him. I mean, if I was him, I would’ve hated me too.

I brought this misery upon myself, so I suppose I deserve being let go.

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ANYHOOOOOO, I’m still trying to get my old domain back (absolutely no clue what went wrong) so in the meantime, say hello to this new space!

I will be back again! Promise I won’t be lazy.

Till next time!

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2 thoughts on “back again

  1. Partnerincrime

    Awww babe.. There’s always a silver lining to it. You’re young and beautiful this is the best time to discover yourself. It was not love that you grew out of instead you grow in life, became wiser and now hold different priorities in life. In shaa Allah the one to sweep you off your feet will come pretty soon at a divine time.

    Love,
    Your darulmakmurpartnerincrime

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